Daniel
From "The Rain is Okay"
Met her at a bar in the middle of nowhere, nowhere special dust floating with stale cigarettes and the smell of unknown radiation She's sitting on the floor adored but unnoticed, assuming nothing nothing but static noise The boys dance with her but only in passing, she's masking something she doesn't talk about and I wonder if she sees what I see in her as I ask for her name and she says “Daniel” with confidence I can't fake mistaken self-identity means nothing as she takes my hand, my heart twists into a thousand knots I forgot who I was, but she knew enough for both of us The party was our lives as we tried to survive the hurricane I'm not the same, not the same as she kissed me in private, betraying nothing to the outside, even when I asked “What are we? What are we?” Fireflies and space dust, dust floating in the ether while we're fucking in the dark, sparks of forever clouded my soul I forgot who I was, but she knew enough for both of us I said “forever isn't long enough” She looks at me and says I'm too damn serious, delirious, delusional playing house, making her into something she never asked to be, but for me she'd pretend for just a while her smile an infection, deception the last thing on her mind but she can't erase herself, identity mistaken or otherwise, a matter of wounded pride I forgot who I was, but she knew enough for both of us She left me at a show, I know I know I won't forget her, even though she tried her best and I messed up an unknown variable, but it's not my fault, my fault, my fault I learned a sum total of nothing time stood still, until I came up for air and realized she took me to another dimension and I didn't know how, or if I'd find home again, again I forgot who I was, but she knew enough for both of us